I’m regretting the day I have to apologize to my son for making him black in America.
What to say when you have said it all??? What to do when you feel you’ve done it all??? Two days in a row I have woken up to heart-wrenching news. I feel so much despair. How am I supposed to be able to function in my everyday life??? Some days you’re unable to can. And this is another day that I can not.
I’m angry that this keeps happening. I’m tired of praying. I’m tired of going to rallies. I’m tired of protesting. I’m tired of apologizing. I’m tired of talking. I’m tired. Are you not tired too???
You hoes talked about a darn gorilla for weeks, flooded my timeline, but I see none of you hoes upset now when black people CONTINUALLY and CONSTANTLY are MURDERED on a DAILY basis. Because this is an everyday thing. This has become common place. It’s normal. Black lives don’t matter.
I’ve come to a time in my life where I am ready to settle down and start having kids. But if you knew how often I delay or decide against it, because I know when they come out they will have a target on their backs. Other people don’t have that worry. Their only concern is to teach their kid their ABC’s and how to tie their shoes. I have to teach them their colors and that they will be hated simply because they are one. I’m regretting the day I have to apologize to my son for making him black in America; something he should revel in, be proud of, be glorious, flourish in.
I don’t want to talk about this any longer. I’m not going to peacefully march. Been there, done that, and bought the all black t-shirt. I need action. When I heard about the #AltonSterling situation, after I wiped my tears, I began to think immediately. What can I do to help??? What can I do to bring change??? Should I start a GoFund me account in his name to help his family with essentials and their soon-to-be lawyer fees??? Should I send out a petition and request actions from a constantly failing court system??? WHAT CAN I DO RIGHT NOW SO ANOTHER LIFE DOESN’T HAVE TO BE CLAIMED IN THE PROCESS?!?!
We realize the issue is a broken system. How do we fix it??? The only course of action I propose is to fix the system. The only way I personally can fix the system is to vote. Ideally, elect people with similar views that care about the well-being of people so they can fight and fix these broken laws. Petition our current elected legislature (governors, representatives, city counsel people, etc.) to bring immediate change. Spend money wisely (buy black and local). Spread awareness and educate others. Am I missing something??? PLEASE let me know.
I encourage EACH and EVERY one of you to do SOMETHING. Please don’t be stationary and complacent. This is not the time. I’m not posting another hashtag. A piece of me breaks every time. I’m falling apart. If you heard nothing else I said, BE ACTIVE.